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Happy 6th birthday To My mom in Heaven

Dear mom, Happy 6th birthday in heaven and Mother’s Day. I hope dad is making you breakfast in bed and brought you flowers to plant in your garden. I imagine you have a garden in heaven since you love planting flowers and growing vegetables. I bet it’s a beautiful garden like your soul. Ana and… Continue reading Happy 6th birthday To My mom in Heaven

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Happy 12th Birthday In Heaven To My Dad

Dear Dad, Happy 12th birthday in heaven. I hope everything is going well with you in heaven. I’m still missing you here on Earth. I wish I could celebrate with you. The world is still in a pandemic. Schools are half virtual and hybrid now. Your granddaughter is virtual because she has migraines and it… Continue reading Happy 12th Birthday In Heaven To My Dad

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The Last Two Days Hit My Daughter with Double Whammies

Rain and windy days are a nightmare for her. Headaches take over her days. She gets into a fog and really grumpy because of the pain. I know she doesn’t mean to get extremely upset with me, but it’s hard not to have her bad mood rub off on me. I’m just feeling her mood… Continue reading The Last Two Days Hit My Daughter with Double Whammies

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Reflecting On The Pandemic

I wrote this whole looking back on the pandemic blog entry in my personal blog on an app called, Zinnia, but I can’t finish the story part of it. Trying to remember what happened last year when my life turned upside down because of the pandemic is way more painful than I thought. I don’t… Continue reading Reflecting On The Pandemic

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Today Marks 100 Days of Virtual Kindergarten

We survived 100 Day of Virtual school! The journey started rocky then switched to the norm for my daughter. She had a hard time adjusting at first. Her anxiety made the adjustment difficult for herself and me. The days of school seemed as if I was stunk in a nightmare. I felt as if virtual… Continue reading Today Marks 100 Days of Virtual Kindergarten

Motherhood · Quarantine/COVID-19/Coronavirus

As I Watched My Daughter Play In The Snow

As I watched my daughter play in the snow these last couple of days, I forgot reality for a little bit. Life felt normal as if the pandemic NEVER happened and everything stayed the same. I watched her slide down the little hill by our house in her pool tub at our house. My daughter… Continue reading As I Watched My Daughter Play In The Snow

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Letter To My Father on His 12th Death Anniversary

Dear Dad, Hey, how are you? I miss you. It’s been 12 years since I heard your voice, seen your smile, hug you, kiss you on the cheek, and hold your hand. I miss all of those things. I can’t believe it’s been so long. My heart still aches for your presence especially with the… Continue reading Letter To My Father on His 12th Death Anniversary

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One Day Closer to My Father’s 12th death anniversary

Today is one day closer to my father’s 12th death anniversary. My mind is starting to feel foggy. I can’t think straight. I’m also feeling anxious because we’re STILL in the middle of a pandemic. Depression and anxiety are present every day now, which scares me because I don’t need any more emotions cloudy up… Continue reading One Day Closer to My Father’s 12th death anniversary