As Christmas comes closer, I’m feeling indifferent about what another year with my parents. My Christmas spirit is here like I said in my previous post. But it doesn’t change the fact that I miss my parents everyday especially around Christmas because everything rotates around family.
I’m beyond grateful for my boyfriend’s family and family on my dad’s side because I don’t know what I would be without for Christmas. It’s nice knowing I’m not going to be alone and depressed. I have a family to surround myself with.
I also have a 3 year old who has the best Christmas spirit ever. That’s exactly what I need in my life right now. I need a little one to show me what Christmas is all about. She’s just learning about and starting to understand Christmas. I’m truly enjoying every moment of it.
A part of me wishes my parents could experience her joy. They would love every moment of it. I can only hope they’re watching from heaven like everyone keeps telling me.
As I mentally prepare myself for Christmas and Christmas Eve, my daughter and I are going to get cookies for Santa today. I hope the food store isn’t crazy. What am I kidding; it’s going to be insane. I’m just glad I only have to get cookies, so I don’t have to run around like a nut. Thankfully, I have all the gifts wrapped. And I don’t have to cook anything for Christmas Eve or Christmas Day. I’m pretty thankful for that. I guess I’m pretty much ready.
It’s just another year without my parents.
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