Do you ever wonder why something happened? Or why it happened at a particular moment? Or why it happened at a particular time in your life? Or what would happen if you choose a different path? Oh if everything would have been the same? I do all the time.
I’m not sure why I do this, but sometimes my mind wondering thinking about all the different things that could have happened. I especially do this when I’m missing my mom or dad. I wonder if I choose a different path would they be alive. For example, if I had my daughter earlier in my life, would my mom still be alive? If I went to an in state college, would my dad will be alive? I wonder about things like this all the time.
I even wonder what if I stayed with any of my exes where I would be. It’s not because I’m not happy. I’m just interested in where my life would be and where I would live.
I have always done this. I’m not sure why. My mind always has what if I did these moments for as long as I can remember. It has always been a part of me. I can’t seem to help wonder about all of the possibilities.
I’m curious if I would still be living the life I am or would things be different. I even think about how I would be feeling.
My mind wonders all the time about life. I don’t know how to turn it off. Sometimes, I don’t want it to shut off because it’s fun to think about the what if. Then other times, I just get anxious and want to stop all the crazy thoughts. Thinking about what if can drain me at times because it goes too far and my anxiety creeps in.
Overthinking is a mixture of a cure and blessings in the end.
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