The absolute worst part about losing a Mom at a young age is what she misses. Your Mom misses everything from your struggles to your successes. But not having her around for your struggles takes a toll on you because everyone around you is talking about how his or her mom helping her through the hard times. Yeah, it hurts when you can’t share your successes with your Mom too, but the hard times stab a hole in your heart.
All you want is to be like all the other women and men in her life who can turn to their moms when things get hard. You just want her advice or to even hear her voice as a clarifications everything will be ok. You only want her advice or just rant to her. No one else is good enough.
This pain of not having her around when you’re young breaks your heart into million pieces. Nothing works to place the puzzle pieces together. You think maybe super glue will, but then again it’s probably not going to work. You have tried everything to feel normal again, but unfortunately, it’s not working.
All you want is her here to guide you like everyone else’s moms. You want to feel normal. But the truth is you’ve not considered normal anymore.
You have to figure out a way to stay strong and find out how to deal with your strengths on your own. The reality is you can’t depend on Mom anymore. It’s not because she can’t help or more stressful than helpful; you can’t because your Mom is dead.
She isn’t around to be the biggest or worst Mom around. She’s not around to annoy you. She’s not here to text or calls when you need to talk, rant, or for her help. You’re on your own.
Look, it’s not going to be easy. Because let’s be real, your support system isn’t going to help you all the time. They’re going to let you down or not know what exactly to say, so you have to cruise around life as if you have had everything handled. It’s obvious you don’t want to but you have to do it for yourself and your mom.
Your Mom wouldn’t want you feeling sorry for yourself. She would want you to live life. Yes, it’s unfortunate and something she nor you imagine going through a such a young age. But it’s reality and you have to figure out a way to cope when things feel like they’re turning upside down.
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