30 Things You Don’t Notice After Losing Both of Your Parents

At times, my mind wonders to a state of my mind I don’t understand. Ever since I lost my parents my mind leaps into an endless pit of misunderstood actions. I’m sorry I don’t notice I’m doing the following things. Please take this into consideration.

  1. I tend to stop listening when someone is talking to me.
  2. I snap for no reason.
  3. I start to cry when something reminds me of my parents.
  4. I get way too worked up.
  5. I let my anxiety just take over me.
  6. I open the door to depression when I know I shouldn’t.
  7. I blame everything on myself even I obviously didn’t do anything.
  8. I don’t see how it’s my fault when it clearly is all me.
  9. I can’t accept reality and would rather live in a pit of lies.
  10. I ,sometimes, talk without thinking before opening my mouth.
  11. I can’t find the right words when I should be answering back.
  12. Then, I have moments when I talk someone’s ear off.
  13. I let yourself get too lost in memories of my parents.
  14. I drown in bad memories of my parents.
  15. I block out things I don’t want to remember because I only want to remember the good things about my parents.
  16. I have panic attack when you have to talk about death itself.
  17. I zone out and forget what’s around you.
  18. I tend to withdraw from everyone in your life.
  19. I don’t have control over my emotions sometimes.
  20. I feel like I don’t exist to love ones and friends.
  21. I get annoyed when someone cares and makes me talk about my feelings.
  22. I get pissed off when someone says all the wrong things to me.
  23. I flip out when I hear certain trigger words.
  24. I have times when I’m mentally, physically, and spiritually broken.
  25. I cry myself to sleep without thinking about it.
  26. I start a fight without knowing I did.
  27. I overthink every little thing and make it worse in my mine.
  28. I start to cry out of nowhere.
  29. I get jealous when I see someone with a mom/dad.
  30. I get jealous when I hear someone talk about her mom/dad.

Look, I’m not trying to make up excuses for my actions. It’s just justifying what’s on my mind. If you haven’t noticed, my life changed dramatically since I started I grieving for my parent(s).

Life after losing a parent or both parents is a puzzle missing key piece in order to finish. Without that being said, please remember this and my life next time you’re talking to me.

Check out my page, Kimi Ann-Marie for various of posts about life, mom life, reviews, and grieving. Check out my page, Positive Thinking About Parents Death for grieving advice about your mom or dad and reminding yourself you’re not alone.

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