Time is flying before my eyes. I can’t believe my mom’s death anniversary is here once again. I feel as if she just died yesterday but in reality, it’s been longer. Another year has passed without my mom.
I miss you so much especially when I just want her advice when I’m lost. I wish I could call her up and talk to her. My life feels as if it’s upside down without her.
Everyone keeps telling me life is going to get better. But how can it get better without my mom? I’m not really sure if it can or ever will. My mom was my best friend. She snapped me back to reality when I felt a dark cloud over my head. Her hug cured EVERYTHING! I would talk to her about everything and cry to her when I feel sad.
I just want my mom, especially when I’m feeling so down.
Yes, I have to amazing people in my life who help me live without my mom, but it’s just not the same. I want her here along with everyone else.
But instead … I’m feeling lost without her for another year. It’s another year of her missing all my successes and failures. It’s another year of her not being a phone call or message away. She can’t hug or kiss me.
As time goes on, I feel as if my mom’s anniversary seems to get harder. I hate knowing she’s going to miss so much. I know I kept repeating this, but it’s the truth.
Life is so difficult without her. I hope one day I can cope better with her death. But for now, I’m drowning in the ocean waiting for this nightmare to end.
I’m going to try and keep myself busy today, so my mom doesn’t have a chance to think. I can’t promise I’m not going to cry because of course, I am. My tear reminds me it’s okay to be sad without you.
I love you mom!
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