Time has passed on without you yet again. I can’t believe I’m celebrating another Father’s Day without you. It’s crazy how fast time flies. I miss you still and wish I could celebrate with you. But here I am, celebrating yet another Father’s Day without you.
It’s my 11th Father’s Day with you in heaven. I just can’t believe it. The pain embraces inside of me everything I think about it. I miss you dearly.
I know we had a rocky relationship when you got cancer but no matter what you were my dad. I’m sorry for saying “I hate you” multiple times to you. I never really did. I just hated the guy you have become when cancer took over. You changed into a demon and someone I learned to fear.
I realize now that I should have said, “I love you,” more because not it’s Father’s Day and that’s all I want to say to you. I would do anything to just tell you how much I love you in person again.
You did so much for me. I was so selfish and ungrateful at times. I’m sorry about that.
You took my brother and me all over the United Status after you retired the summer before you knew you had cancer and I started 6th grade. I will never forget my memories from the trip because they are my last happy memories of my preteen/teen life. Thank you for taking the pictures. I cherish them more than ever now. My daughter also loves to see the pictures and knowing you through them.
Things are starting to get somewhat back to normal. I’m so glad but I still wish you were here. I’ll try to do something to honor you. I’m not sure what yet but I’ll think of something.
I hope you have a lovely day with mom and your parents in heaven.
Cookie Monster 💜
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