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My 12th Father’s Day Without You Letter

Dear Dad,

Another Father’s Day without you in the books. I miss you dearly. It’s 12 Father’s Day without you. Time is flying by way too fast. I can’t believe you have been gone for so long.

What’s new with me? Good news …. The pandemic is starting to loosen up. I got my vaccination so I can go to our favorite beach for free. You know that’s always been a dream of mine, so I’m super happy about Island Beach State Park is free for the vaccinated people. On the last day of school, my daughter experienced the whole boardwalk experience package. She loved everything moment of it. She even tried fried Oreos for the first time. I will NEVER forget the first time I tried fried Oreos with Mom and you. I wish you could have physically joined us. I did feel as if Mom and you were there in spirit because I didn’t feel alone. A strange feeling made me think you two joined us.

My daughter is a 1st grader now too. The school year was a nightmare from time to time but she survived and did so well even though she was all virtual the whole time. I’m so proud of her. She deserved her late afternoon beach and boardwalk time. After a long school year, it was nice to do something special out of our norm. The pandemic has ruined so much for her, so I’m glad we could escape a little bit.

Oh, I did something you would do. I parked pretty far from the boardwalk. I remember walked forever with you all the time just to get free parking. My daughter and I figured out a closer parking area for the next time we go. She wants to go again. I don’t blame her the boardwalk and beach are magical places.

How am I doing? … I’m still trying to figure my life out. September is still up in the air. My daughter should be going back in person and full time, so I can go back to work. I’m not sure what to do yet. Possibilities are endless. I guess we’ll just have to see what’s going to happen. Nothing is predictable at the moment. Nothing else new here. I’m just like Mom and busy with my daughter’s activities. Cheer, dance, and gymnastics are going to my life in the fall. I love seeing Anastasia so happy because it makes me happy. My life can always unfold itself somehow. I’m not sure when but I know it will.

I hope you have a wonderful Father’s Day with Mom in heaven. Love you.

Always Love,
Cookie Monster

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