Twelve Years Without My Dad

Today is the day. My dad’s 12th death anniversary is here. I’m feeling okay. I guess. The numbness is here but not as bad as it normally is on his death anniversary. I don’t know why. I feel fine. It’s only the morning. I know I have the whole day to get through still. Hopefully,…

Letter To My Father on His 12th Death Anniversary

Dear Dad, Hey, how are you? I miss you. It’s been 12 years since I heard your voice, seen your smile, hug you, kiss you on the cheek, and hold your hand. I miss all of those things. I can’t believe it’s been so long. My heart still aches for your presence especially with the…

One Day Closer to My Father’s 12th death anniversary

Today is one day closer to my father’s 12th death anniversary. My mind is starting to feel foggy. I can’t think straight. I’m also feeling anxious because we’re STILL in the middle of a pandemic. Depression and anxiety are present every day now, which scares me because I don’t need any more emotions cloudy up…

Christmas With A Six Year Old During The Pandemic

Christmas time is very dear to my heart because my parents loved everything about the holiday. I have mixed feelings about Christmas since it makes me feel joyful and extremely sad at the same time. My daughter made this year special for me by helping out with everything! Christmas is way more exciting with a…

Thanksgiving During A Pandemic as a Parentless Mother

Thanksgiving is a holiday where you share what you’re thankful for with others. The typical things people say they’re thankful for are their Mom and Dad. Sometimes, other things are mentioned but it’s mainly Mom and Dad. They should be because parents are wonderful figures in our lives. Moms and Dads do so much for…

Happy Quarantine Birthday to My Little Princess

Happy birthday to my little princess! I can’t believe you’re 6 years old today. Where did the time go? You’re growing up too fast. It still feels like you were just born yesterday. But no … you’re 6! Look, I know this year is different and a party isn’t happening this year. I wish I…

Our Halloween During The Pandemic

This is Halloween, this is Halloween, Halloween, Halloween, Halloween, Halloween … during the pandemic. Halloween is a favorite holiday in my house. My daughter and I love it so much. During the Covid breakout, Halloween plans are unpredictable. The numbers are rising in my state once again. Our Halloween during the pandemic wasn’t like we…

Dear Mom Six Years Ago You Left Me

Dear Mom, Time just keeps moving on without you. It’s starting to see as if another day now. I hate how it’s feeling like a typical day. My heart still feels heavy as always on this day. But it’s different because I’m trying to not let it drain me. I can’t let the numbness and…

Wake Me Up When October Ends During The Pandemic

As October starts, I can’t help myself from thinking about what if my mom was alive. October has always been my favorite month but the last almost 6 years brought on a roller coaster of emotions. Luckily as my daughter gets older, the pain of my mom’s death anniversary disappears in the air. She loves…