Dear Mom, Happy birthday! I can't believe it's been three years without you already. It's crazy how fast time flew. I miss you so much. As spring rolls in, I can't help myself from feeling emotional as the stores fill up with flowers. I still dislike flowers, but the scent of different types of flowers … Continue reading Happy Birthday to My Mom In Heaven
The relationship between a child and her parent is unlike any other. This is the person who teaches her how to love, how to handle herself when she feels entirely overwhelmed, and how to stand up for herself like no other. And since losing them, they've inadvertently taught her how to survive on her own. … Continue reading To the Guy Who Loves a Girl With A Parent In Heaven
A poem from March 2015, which was only 5 months after my mom died.
I must rediscover who I am without your alive. I must pull away the sorrow and bring in the happiness again.
I would rather have you here on Earth with me.
Dear Mom, Today’s another Easter without you. It still feels like yesterday you were asking me what I wanted in my basket. That’s all a dream now because you’re not here to ask me what I want or give me a basket. My heart aches for your presence today. I want to wake up from … Continue reading If Heaven Had A Mailbox, I Would Send My Mom A Letter On Easter
I never imagine how much pain I would be in seeing others with their mothers until I lost mine. It's like a knife stabbing into my heart multiple times. I hate feeling envious of other moms with their moms and grandmas with their grandchildren. My heart just broke into a million pieces every time. Some … Continue reading To The Girl Wishing, She Wasn’t Motherless
I still can't believe Toy R Us/Babies R Us are closing. It truly breaks my heart. I have so many memories of going shopping here throughout my life. My favorite memories at Toy R Us are as a child. I just remember going in Toy R Us and feeling like I was in the great … Continue reading Toy R Us Will Always Have A Special Place in My Heart
Moving on after a Mother’s death isn't possible because you can never “move on.” The pain is too deep to so call “move on” from.
No one understands the pain you suffered for years. They will never understand what it's like to watch a parent suffer right in front of his or her eyes. They aren't the ones who spend most of his or her childhood worrying about what you had to deal with over and over again. You never … Continue reading To The Girl Who Watched Her Mom/Dad Fight Cancer For Years