Happy Quarantine Birthday To Me

Well today is my birthday. I wish more than anything I could go out and celebrate tonight. My birthday is finally on a Friday and I can’t even celebrate. Thanks to the Coronavirus. Ugh I hate it. I love my birthday. But this year, I’m just not feeling it. I can’t go out and see…

Wandering Thoughts of Grief

The thought of not having you around breaks my heart into a million puzzle pieces. I’m trying to pick up the pieces, but nothing works to ease the pain. My heart longs to have you back into my life. I feel as if I lost a part of me when you Died. Every day is…

Why Does A Woman Have To Choice A Career Or Having Kids

I’m a newly working mom. And you know what, it sucks so much. I hate every moment of being a working mom. The battle between being a mom and working becomes a daily challenge I can’t get used to as much as I try. I can’t wrap my head around why a woman have to…

Another Year As a Parentless Parent

Time is flying way too fast for me. I can’t believe another year has part without my parents. The years are just flying by way too quick for my liking. I hate how I have to survive another year as a Parentless parent. I wish they were here everyone to see me grow up in…

Working In Retail During The Holiday When You’re Parentless

Retail jobs are rough during the holiday season because everyone stresses about what to get others in their lives. The workers are often yelled out because of stores not having what people are looking for or the lines being too long. Stores are often trashed as well, so it’s hard for employees to keep up…

The Absent of Parents Is Effecting My Daughter

I made the choice of letting my daughter that my parents have died. I never wanted to sugarcoat the truth for her especially when she started questioning things. I’m glad I did too because then she knows why I get so sad sometimes. Look I know, a lot of parents say you should hide your…

Trigger Point Words After Losing My Parents

Death doesn’t scare me. I have experience way more death cases than I like to share with people. My life has always been surrounded by funerals and grieving for a love one. You see, my grandparents died before I turned three then after that aunts and uncles died one after another. Friends passed away too….

The Last Night Ever In My Mom’s House

I’m sitting in my mom’s house for the last time. The emotions running through my veins and mind a million miles per hour. I can’t sleep because my thoughts and memories keeping me up. Some are bad. Some are good. It doesn’t mind because I can’t sleep. Tonight is the last night in my mom’s…

10 Songs To Help Me Get Through Your Death Anniversary

Death anniversaries aren’t never easy. Music is always here to help me get through the day. It’s the only thing I can always count on for being there for me. The best thing about music is it’s only speaks the truth but NEVER talks back when you questions what’s being said. 1 …”Speak to meWhen…

Good bye 2018. HELLO 2019!

Dear 2018, You have taught me so much about myself. I have learned that it’s ok to go out of my comfort zone and try something new. I have to spoke my mind rather than bottle how I truly feel because it’s not healthy. I learned how not to drain myself emotional in the beginning…