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Watching The Years Pass By Too Fast

Mom, the years are passing by way too fast. I don’t even know where the time is going anymore. It’s like I blink and another year passes by without you. The pain isn’t getting any better. Time just opens up a bigger hole in my heart instead of healing the broken pieces. Grief is a… Continue reading Watching The Years Pass By Too Fast

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Dear Mom Six Years Ago You Left Me

Dear Mom, Time just keeps moving on without you. It’s starting to see as if another day now. I hate how it’s feeling like a typical day. My heart still feels heavy as always on this day. But it’s different because I’m trying to not let it drain me. I can’t let the numbness and… Continue reading Dear Mom Six Years Ago You Left Me

motherless · Quarantine/COVID-19/Coronavirus

Wake Me Up When October Ends During The Pandemic

As October starts, I can't help myself from thinking about what if my mom was alive. October has always been my favorite month but the last almost 6 years brought on a roller coaster of emotions. Luckily as my daughter gets older, the pain of my mom’s death anniversary disappears in the air. She loves… Continue reading Wake Me Up When October Ends During The Pandemic

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Eleven Years Since You Have Passed Away

I can’t believe it’s been so long. Time flew so fast and not a day goes by where I wish you were here with me. I’m entering a new decade without you. It’s 2020 now, Dad. I wish you come to experience life with me in this new decade. You can’t though because it’s eleven… Continue reading Eleven Years Since You Have Passed Away

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10 Songs To Help Me Get Through Your Death Anniversary

Death anniversaries aren't never easy. Music is always here to help me get through the day. It's the only thing I can always count on for being there for me. The best thing about music is it's only speaks the truth but NEVER talks back when you questions what's being said. 1 ..."Speak to meWhen… Continue reading 10 Songs To Help Me Get Through Your Death Anniversary

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A Decade Without You Feels So Unreal

Depression is creeping in my mind. I'm moving into a different kind of grief stage this year. My positive thoughts are fading in and out. I can't believe how much time has past. A full decade without you feels so unreal. How in the world did so much time past? Today, it feels as if… Continue reading A Decade Without You Feels So Unreal

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Wake Me Up When My Mom’s Death Anniversary Passes

I miss you every day, but the month of October just drains me. The thought of your death anniversary coming in a few weeks haunts my brain. I can't stop thinking about it when I look at the calendar. It pops up at me like a nightmare you have night after night. The pain is… Continue reading Wake Me Up When My Mom’s Death Anniversary Passes