Mother's Day is a day to honor your mother. When you're mom isn't in the picture anymore, the day is more filled with sorrow and tears. What happens when you're a mom yourself? You're forced to celebrate even if you're secretly don't want to without your own mom. You have no choice because you're a … Continue reading Here’s To Another Motherless Mother’s Day
Dear Mom, Oh Mom, I miss you so much. I'm here spending your birthday without you again. The pain I feeling is unreal. I just want to feel normal again. But normal seems so far away without you. What is normal? Mom, I really don't know. All I know, I don't want to spend your … Continue reading Letter To My Mom On Her Birthday In Heaven
Depression is creeping in my mind. I'm moving into a different kind of grief stage this year. My positive thoughts are fading in and out. I can't believe how much time has past. A full decade without you feels so unreal. How in the world did so much time past? Today, it feels as if … Continue reading A Decade Without You Feels So Unreal
The days and years are still going on without you. I can feel my heart break as if it is truly missing an important puzzle piece held for a girl’s mother. Every day leaves a mark on my heart and mind as the years passes by into a new year. My heart still aches for … Continue reading Another Motherless Year Waiting To Greet Me
I miss you every day, but the month of October just drains me. The thought of your death anniversary coming in a few weeks haunts my brain. I can't stop thinking about it when I look at the calendar. It pops up at me like a nightmare you have night after night. The pain is … Continue reading Wake Me Up When My Mom’s Death Anniversary Passes
I must rediscover who I am without your alive. I must pull away the sorrow and bring in the happiness again.
I would rather have you here on Earth with me.
I never imagine how much pain I would be in seeing others with their mothers until I lost mine. It's like a knife stabbing into my heart multiple times. I hate feeling envious of other moms with their moms and grandmas with their grandchildren. My heart just broke into a million pieces every time. Some … Continue reading To The Girl Wishing, She Wasn’t Motherless