Wandering Thoughts of Grief

The thought of not having you around breaks my heart into a million puzzle pieces. I’m trying to pick up the pieces, but nothing works to ease the pain. My heart longs to have you back into my life. I feel as if I lost a part of me when you Died. Every day is…

The 10th Christmas Without My Father

The pain is unreal for me this Christmas. This year isn’t just another fatherless Christmas. It’s 10th Christmas without my father. I thought by not I would be used to not having my father around for Christmas. Well, I was totally wrong. I’m not used to his absence like I thought. Actually, I’m far from…

The Pain of Being Motherless When You’re 30 Or Younger

The loss of a mother is unbearable and sucks the life out of you. Yes, I do believe losing a mom is hard at any age, but it’s different when 30 or younger because you’re going through stages of your live which a mother is centered around, such as having a kid, getting married, graduation,…

Trigger Point Words After Losing My Parents

Death doesn’t scare me. I have experience way more death cases than I like to share with people. My life has always been surrounded by funerals and grieving for a love one. You see, my grandparents died before I turned three then after that aunts and uncles died one after another. Friends passed away too….

Please Send This Letter to Heaven

Dear Mom, I miss you so much. I can’t believe it’s been 5 years since you left me. My heart is aching with pain today. Time is flying way too fast without you. I hate how much you’re missing. I guess I’m just going to have to fill you in. My daughter started Preschool in…

Here’s To Another Motherless Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day is a day to honor your mother. When you’re mom isn’t in the picture anymore, the day is more filled with sorrow and tears. What happens when you’re a mom yourself? You’re forced to celebrate even if you’re secretly don’t want to without your own mom. You have no choice because you’re a…

Letter To My Mom On Her Birthday In Heaven

Dear Mom, Oh Mom, I miss you so much. I’m here spending your birthday without you again. The pain I feeling is unreal. I just want to feel normal again. But normal seems so far away without you. What is normal? Mom, I really don’t know. All I know, I don’t want to spend your…

A Decade Without You Feels So Unreal

Depression is creeping in my mind. I’m moving into a different kind of grief stage this year. My positive thoughts are fading in and out. I can’t believe how much time has past. A full decade without you feels so unreal. How in the world did so much time past? Today, it feels as if…

Another Motherless Year Waiting To Greet Me

 The days and years are still going on without you.  I can feel my heart break as if it is truly missing an important puzzle piece held for a girl’s mother. Every day leaves a mark on my heart and mind as the years passes by into a new year. My heart still aches for…

Wake Me Up When My Mom’s Death Anniversary Passes

I miss you every day, but the month of October just drains me. The thought of your death anniversary coming in a few weeks haunts my brain. I can’t stop thinking about it when I look at the calendar. It pops up at me like a nightmare you have night after night. The pain is…